Dilemma..

Lately I have been hesitating if should or should not. After some serious thinking and analyzing the pros and cons, I have decided. I have to do it. I really need to. There is no other way to stop this urge in me, every night before I sleep and every morning when I open my eyes, this is what I think of. I can’t delay this any further till it affects me mentally. Maybe now is not the right time. But seriously, if not now, when? If every one else can do it, why not me? I dun see it as a sin; it’s absolutely pure pleasure. I have read somewhere that it would actually boost up your spirits, energy level and make you feel more confident. I need that, don’t I?

Even if I don’t do this for myself, I have to do it for my bf’s sake. Poor fella. So yeah, I have decided; maybe tonight, or during the weekend. I gotta do it before my parents return.

I hope I won’t regret my action and I hope the consequences will not be so bad.

I am going to do some serious shopping. I need clothes; badly!

By:'lilo