When nothing feels right..
When I feel all down..
When life is no fun..

I just want to buy a handbag..
And look at it all night.



Lilo

Life

Body entangled between wires..
With the machines dictating your breath..
Alarms reminding you are alive..

After-all life is only a heart beat away from death.




Lilo

Partners vs Parents

I don't (maybe I do), believe in signs. But today's breakfast talk on radio was, well let's just say, a high coincidence. It was about choosing partners or parents? Of course in the situation when you can't have both.

Was an interesting discussion. Although, all the problems discussed seemed so tiny compared to mine.

Gist of it:

- follow your heart
- too attached parents and too attached partners are the same, get rid of them both
- fight, fight, fight. You don't have to choose, don't give up till you have both
- buy a car, fall in love with it instead ;)
- eventually parents will accept you, try having a kid! :p
- it's ok to be selfish
- it's your life, no one knows better what's best for you than yourself


Hmm.. Time to rethink.. Is it really ok to be selfish?

Decisions.. Decisions.. Sigh..



Lilo

Life updates..

I've been neglecting the blog way too long. I apologize. I have been wanting to write a update of my life for sometime, and now seems like the best time.

Honestly, nothing has changed. Life still sucks. It's still hard. Getting through a day not crying seems like a big achievement now. Still going through the same "single-thirtysomething-indiangirl" problem. Maybe at full swing now.

Work is ok, but all the people I called friends left. My nicest boss left. So I'm kinda fighting the battle with the Chinese all by myself. Definitely not fun. At least pays my bills. And then there's the wanting to move, but don't know what to do problem.

On the men side, I still hold my ground. They may come in fifty shades; but they are all the same shitty grey. Enough said.

Hope everyone else is having a good life. Till next time.


Lilo

Lilo

Wannabe Barista

I had one hell of a weekend. That's right. One hell of a adventure that was.

(I take it that if you have been following my blog, you would know by now, my "adventure" is in no way, related to being fun)

So I spent the longest weekend of my life, helping my sister prepare for a tender submission. Trust me, it was one hell of a tender. We called it the mother of all tenders. Beats all the exams I have taken in my life hands down.

In a very sleepy stressed state, around 4am in the morning, I came to a realization. That's probably the wisest thing, (at least to some) I've ever said in my life.

"Life is too short for me to be counting how many zeros are there in a million"

And still in a sleepy but not so stressed state, at 4pm in the evening, I still think it's true. That's really the last thing I wanna do.

All I ever wanna be is to secure myself a job as a barista in the coolest coffee shop and it would be a big bonus if that coffee shop could face a deep blue sea.


Lilo

(It must be a coffee shop! Nothing else. I have it all planned. In case you want to recommend any)

(Warning: Self gloating moment. Go play far far!)

A wise man once said,
"If you can't convince them; confuse them"

And that's exactly what I did! And did that super awesomely.

Nailed, seized and sealed it!

Finally over with my advance everything crap in Jakarta. What some more advanced? Bring it on!

And in your face, old man!


iLilo