The end is the beginning is the end

Every year a new year begins.. You wait for the day for as long as you can remember, you stay up, you have a party, you do a countdown and welcome the new year..

Whether you say your resolutions out loud or keep it to yourself, or even if you decide not to make any this year, secretly in your heart, you know, you want, you hope, this year will be a better year.. And you keep your fingers (even the toes crossed)..

And then your birthday comes, without any delay at all.. And hey, you turn a year older.. whether you hide under your blankets on the day or run away to another country, you know, you still turn a year older.. and again, you go on telling yourself, hey, i'm wiser this year, this year it will all get better, things will change, finally I will see some light in the freaking long tunnel..

But hey, guess what.. That's whole load of bullshit.. It never happens that way.. No matter how hard you try.. It doesn't matter how hard you pretend it doesn't affect you.. It doesn't matter even if you keep running away and hide..

It only takes a month, for you to realize, nothing has changed.. Truth is, once again, you just want the freaking year to end.. Again..


Lilo