A great holiday (not!)

I’m back from a long weekend to work, and somehow I am not refreshed or re-energized; rather I am feeling like I have just wasted 4 days of my life doing absolutely nothing. 3 days were spent sleeping, tv, food and sleep again. Lot of sleep makes me lazy and lot of food makes me fat. So both no good!

And one more day was wasted in a beach called Port Dickson (for those who don’t know, PD is like the worse beach ever in Malaysia, it looks like this and nothing like this) and I really do not know why my family loves going back there again and again. Maybe because it’s the closest by distance. So yes, a group of like 30 people went to PD and all I did was sit there and watch this bunch of people having crazy fun. I did not touch the water or the sand. All I did was to sit and stare blankly and wonder why on earth was I born in this family? Seriously... they really amaze me at times... we seem not to share any common interest. We don’t think alike and I can never feel lonelier than when I am around them.

By: ‘Lilo

Pondering..

The year is coming to an end.. while counting the few remaining days, I have been just thinking through of my life this year.. all my days of the year were either spent at work, working for/with someone else, or else, constantly trying to please others, social obligations, etc etc..

...feeling very empty inside...

undeniably, i have had some good times with my friends, made some new friends and lost some old friends.. have made some progress in my career and have also had my share of working pain with some weird creatures..

somehow, i am still feeling very empty inside.. don't feel like i have achieved anything.. its a real weird feeling that I have so many people around me yet I feel so lonely... its a weird feeling that I work so hard but everything turns out to be just doing my job.. its so weird that I sacrifice so many things yet no one appreciates it..

sigh... is every year gonna be the same?

By:'lilo (still)