Guilty!

I was 15 years old. It was 14th February 1997, when I received my first rose (it was a single red rose, just like the way I like it) It was delivered when I wasn't around in class. When I returned to my desk n saw the rose, I quickly raised it up and ask whose flower is this? without having a slightest hope or clue that, it could actually be mine.. I guess I was less perasan those days.. hehe.. n yeah, the whole class ended up laughing at me. Then I saw the small card attached with my name on it. Needless to say, I was extremely surprised. Shocked actually. I was this nerdy gal in school, with huge glasses, long skirt, prefect, u get the picture..

Anyway, the sweet surprise came from a guy named N, whom I have never spoken to, had no clue of his existence until that day. My classmates did the huge favor in describing him to me in every tiny detail possible.. Then I started noticing him.. Then it made sense, why he prefers to spend his recess breaks at a really hot spot near one of my school building. I performed by prefect duties there, every day during recess.

We had more eye contacts since then.. But we never spoke a word..

Then our glory days started.. I started ruling the school politically.. I started climbing up the prefectorial ladder while he was forming a few gangs of his own.. Ppl were scared of him and me for very different reasons..

The final year of our high school was the climax.. He was getting too out of control, and I (together with the authorities of cos) decided to expel him from school... I actually initiated the whole thing... Felt really guilty when I bumped into him months after during the final exams.. (yes, thank god! he was allowed to at least sit for the final examinations, SPM)

Lot of times I have felt really guilty for doing that to him.. I took his final year of school away (we all know, that's our best memory).. I took his right from studying like any normal student.. I have wondered many times how did he score for his exams..

13 years have passed.. pheew.. n yesterday, he added me on facebook.. I was stoned for a min when I saw the add request... n today, he send me a msg.. a very sweet one asking how I am...

I cant help but to feel even more guiltier now.. looks like there are some nice guys around..


By:
Lilo

Lilo is bored...

Lilo is tired...

Lilo needs a massage...

Lilo needs a break...

Lilo needs some alcohol...

Lilo needs a life...

2012

Somehow, I didnt join the bandwagon of watching 2012. I still havent watched that movie.

but anyway, I do tend to believe the end of world is coming soon.. with all the earthquakes in haiti and now chile, the snow in america, the heat in south east asia.. everything just seem to reassure the end of world is coming close... damn!

but no, i'm not sad or anything... if the world is really gonna end, like in 2012, I just have one thing to wish for... can the world please end earlier? pretty please??? like now?? seriously.. i dun think all these pain and headaches are worth going through if the world is really gona end like in the next 2 years :p

oh, god! if u r there, reading this blog, please fulfill this last wish for me... please....

thanks,
lilo

B-Day

Not long ago, when my colleagues asked me my age and I told them, they would say "Oh still so young!" And I would wish they wouldn't say that because young = inexperienced in my work.

Today is my birthday.

When my colleagues wished me and asked me my age and I told them, all they said was "Oh ok".

:(

Ouch!

I should have been more careful of what I wished for.

anya

Dilemma...

I am wondering.. what do you tell a guy, very politely, who is head over heels in luv with you, that you dont feel the same way?

Well, for a start, I have said things like, I am attached to someone, I have a boyfriend, I dont think I can go out with you.. You dont know me.. things will not workout..

And he seem to realise that, I am not single, I am not interested, I will never go out with him, things will not work out between us..

So what do I do now? Ignore him just because he likes me.. or be his friend or at least try to be cos I think he's a good guy n he's fun...

decisons.. decisons... sigh....

lilo..

n i said, YES!!!

aaaaww......

- lilo -

Think again ...

Who says I can't afford a BMW?





=P

Disclaimer: This Pinkscaler could afford it but hadn't sunk to such depths of desperation


~Anya~