Pink Scalers'

Vee day!

2012-02-14T12:34:00.001+08:00

To the two gorgeous ladies I love the most, happy valentines day babes! There's no reason not to show your love, let's celebrate! <3

Love,
iLilo

P/s: to one person, I love on this blog, happy valentines day to you too! :)

its so last year, don't even ask :P

2012-02-13T12:06:00.001+08:00

Ye' ol 2011 updates:

Some normalcy came back to my household after a depressing year especially when brother got back. Was a good change to see some smile on parents faces and have their attention diverted to brother's homecoming, operation, food and studies.
Witnessed a minor part of the Arab Spring movement (in Bahrain). Cool stuff
Ended the 'so called relationship' i had with G. But it was all good. We are friends and always will be friends.
Updated my darn CV but didn't get any job or any interview calls (hard to swallow this but looks like no one wants me :( or they are cheaper resources out there) ~ sigh
Had the MOST AWESOME surprise birthday party ever. I had no idea even up to when i was at the restaurant. Like totally gobsmacked. And seeing all my near and dear ones, with the gifts they bought me was truly touching. And i got an iPad! double yay ;D
Lost mojo for work (nothing new, nothing new)
Ran 3 marathons (an improvement from 1 last year) and did 5 KM without fainting :P
Discovered the gym in the office and started gym'ing
Lost 2 kilos! yay!
Started dating again and this time I'm not doing it for the sake of my parents. But more because I'm into him.
Bought a property!

p/s: Haven't blogged in aeons because I'm lazy and too busy. Loads to write but I'm just writing a very short blog post to sum it all up (now that I'm already signed in as PinkScaler. SEE? Thats how lazy i am!). So yea, i like to kill few cats with one stone.

and yes, im still alive and kickin. Still prefers 2012 to end so my 'duh-lazy-to-live' tendencies are still there.

From the person who has 5 albums due on facebook to share out,

N.e.m.o

...and Manic Mondays never leaves me

2012-02-13T11:45:00.001+08:00

Pre-@#$% Monday

Arm hurts like hell went for a massage but still didn't help

Work emails and tons to do come Monday (which made me not look forward for Monday at all or the coming months)

@#$% Monday

My sister (carpool mate) bails out at the 11th hour (despite me checking with her the night before if we were to carpool) forcing me to look for parking lots frantically from team mates while having my morning toast.

And i don't even want to get started on my carpool and sisterproblems. Or the carpark problems. And yes, i stillhaven't found that job yet.

Texting my ‘sorta boyfriend’ to inform him our plans will have to change YET again.

Not only iwas seeing him after almost 2 months (he was supposed to be back 2 weeks ago),i had to re-arrange the whole arrangement of 'logistics'.

Lost my good mood of anticipating to meet him :(

Arm hurts like hell and great, now I'll be driving total 100KM and more

Can't take Emergency Leave (EL) or Sick leave or work from home because i know one guy has already applied for today in advance and I'm already short on people.

Running4 people for a team that works on 24/7 shift is really NOT a joke. Especiallywhen the team members tend to take ELs and Sick leaves like they are doing theorganization a favor by even showing up to work.

At one point between tea and ironing my ~~once perfect but now ruined after a cycle in the machine~~ new Gap trousers, i must admit, i was very tempted to take EL but i decided to do the responsible thing.

Halfway dressing up for work, get a text from my team mate who is regular in taking sick leaves.

Text: "I need to take EL totake care of my girlfriend bla bla bla bla...."

Note:this is second time he used such excuse.

Over the 3 years of managing this team, I have lost count theamount of times I get text messages of this nature. And best part is, they comefrom everyone except me in the team! I have even started to guess the contentsof the SMSes each time I receive one.

So now I am down to 2 pax (another girl and i).Lucky thing she is on the night shift this week and I’m on morning shift. BigPHEW!

Then of course, as my ~~bad~~ luck would have it, its bad traffic all the way.

While driving, I remembered, I need to pay cashat the 4 tolls today. So much for getting to work fast :P

Why? Because it’s my sister’s turn to fill up theSmartTag and I put it on the table since Friday for her to fill it in. So yea...

Huffs & Puffs,

N.e.m.o

Tick-tock-tick-tock

2012-02-12T11:34:00.000+08:00

Aaarrgghhh!! The suspense is killing me!!

The big question running through my mind and everyone else around me is: WHEN?

I know millions of women go through this everyday all over the world, so my experience is hardly unique. But still! All the unknowns and how-will-it-bes are nail bittingly thrilling and scary at the same time.

My gynae seems to think the baby will arrive anywhere between a few days to a couple of weeks. Lots of people are asking if I'm ready. Eeerrr, no!

I don't think anyone can ever be truly ready for their lifes to be so radically changed.

My mantra:

Stay calm.

Think positive.

Relax.

Wwooosssahhhh!!

Will someone please remind me of my noble intentions when the time comes?

~Anya~

Millionaire in making!

2012-02-09T08:51:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking what would I do if I suddenly turned a millionaire, multi-millionaire to be precise.. Will I quit my job? ~~hell, yes!~~ or will I just go on a long long holiday ~~but, eew, I don't wanna travel anymore~~ so it got me thinking..~~not like I've anything else better to do here~~

Anyway, this started when a taxi driver I met in Perth, out of the blue told me, I should buy a lottery.. He thinks I've a 'lucky face' and the draw for the week was going for 30million!! I just thought that was a random nice thing to say and ignored it.. And on my last day stay in Perth, I got a text from him reminding me to go buy the lottery before 5pm that day.. Let's just ignore the part about why the taxi driver is texting me :p but that's what made me think.. Been doing that for days now..

I have made a list in my head.

1. I wanted to help solve all the problem and buy a Ferrari for certain someone :p but then I know he might not accept it.. So crossed it out of the list..

2. I wanted to quit my job and go for a really nice holiday and maybe travel around for months. But knowing it's so not fun going alone, I was thinking of getting nemo to resign from her job, (she's working too hard :p) and travel with me.. Of cos I'll totally pay her to do it.. Salary + holiday, nemo what say you? :p I've left Anya out as the baby would need mummy to be around.. At least for now :p

3. Then I thought I should do something totally useful for myself with the money.. Like doing what I love for a living.. Which of cos I don't know what.. Then this brilliant idea came about.. I should totally take up and study medicine! I can go to a real cool country, be all student again and have fun for 5 years.. And I still could work for another 20 years or so, so it's not too bad to start, right? But then, when I really analyzed the thought, I realized it could be biased due to watching all those greys and private practice that I love :(

4. And this morning doing some programming sort of thing during my training, I rekindled my love for programming.. I really did enjoy the subject.. I loved playing around with the commands till I get something I want and seeing the results on screen was so joyful.. So now, I'm considering a Masters in Software Engineering.. or IT.. or whatever.. Just can't help feeling so proud of myself :)

All smiles,
iLilo

P/s: I never bought the lottery! :(

2012-02-03T23:00:00.001+08:00

Did I mention, I have successfully crossed out my very first resolution?

Loving my 4s <3

iLilo

2012-02-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

I saw this on a friend's facebook status and thought, 'How true!'

Scientists say the universe is made of protons, neutrons and electrons. They forgot to mention MORONS

~Anya~

On move..

2012-01-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

when you finally learn to get around without getting lost..

when you finally find good food without having have to pay double the normal price..

when you finally make friends ~~with random taxi drivers~~

that's when you will have to move again... sigh...

Lilo - tired of starting all over again..

Friends...

2012-01-11T00:11:00.001+08:00

..they make all the difference :DThis post just can't wait another day. I'm so high (in happiness) right now that I'm staying up writing this :) Tadaaaa...

So, we just celebrated my birthday (3 days earlier) but wth, it was absolutely fun :D (Btw gals, only when I'm posting this pic I realized there were actually 3 candles to represent 30 :p )I totally didn't expect any of this, honestly thought it was just a formality birthday dinner until the cute cup cakes arrived and the biggest and sweetest surprise in years....

my very own kindle! Seriously, what more can I ask for? :D It's absolutely just what I need and really needed right now to cheer up my sorry life :) I usually complain and hate that my birthday is so early in the year.. But year after year, at least for the last 10 years of my life, it has always been made so special.. The blessing in disguise is; also because it's so early in the year, everyone is always around to celebrate my birthday with me.. I'm blessed like that :DAnyway, my dearest girls.. Thank you so much! for everything.. If I'm still standing today (at 30), that's only because of you.. Love you all to pieces! <3iLiloLoving the new toy ;)

Resolutions! As usual..

2012-01-06T11:47:00.002+08:00

It’s already 6th of January and I still haven’t come up with my resolutions for the year. Damn.

I think I’m going to keep it simple this year. (~~Is that a sign of getting old?~~)

1. iPhone 4s
2. Must do a lasik surgery
3. Need a new job (again!)
4. Settle all the loans
5. Go on a really nice self-pampering vacation
6. Start buying/using proper make up ~~to hide all the wrinkles~~. (That reminds me, I still haven’t use my last year birthday gift from the girls :p )

And last but not least, to be content that I am actually 30 this year ;)

Lilo

P/s: oh shit, I totally forgot about losing weight!! That too please..

Bye bye 2011!

2011-12-31T00:04:00.001+08:00

No, the year cannot end without the wrap up of my life..

So I did a scroll back to my year end blog last year, and I'm actually quite amazed that for once most of my resolutions have been achieved..

1. I did get myself a new job - it doesn't count that I'm looking for another one now :p

2. I actually did lose the long waited 5kgs - it also doesn't count that I might have put them back on with all the chocolates and wine :p

3. I did settle all my credit card, I have zero balance for all my cards now :) - but of course I might have other loans to settle now to achieve the zero balance :p but at least I'm getting there!

4. and then there were other things like buying a watch, handbags etc.. Which I also did.. In fact I have done way lot of shopping this year with all the traveling..

5. And of course the resolution on the boyfriend side didn't go too well.. Oh well, that's kinda expected..

Anyway, in a nutshell, I must say 2011 was one hell of a eventful year.. Too many things happened this year..

I can't believe I have traveled to 7 different countries in one year.. Had a share of good and bad experiences.. Big lesson learned: it's not the place but the people that matter

And then there was that life turning break up moment.. That changed everything all together.. Some things will never be the same again.. Another lesson learned: never ever and ever trust men completely, ever!

Did the thing that I thought I hate the most pretty damn well.. And sucked so badly at what I believed was my one n only passion.. That's teaching and traveling :p

Anyway, the year is almost over now.. No point looking through the past.. Looking forward to 2012.. The year that is so promising.. I mean, end of the world is this year, no? So looking forward!! :)

Happy new year all! Thank you for being part of my year..

And special thanks to nemo and Anya for being there for me no matter what, what time and what nonsense.. Can't thank u both enough! I wonder how u people put up with me sometimes.. But no, that's not for you to wonder, I'm too old to make new friends ok? :p xoxo

Love,
iLilo

2011-12-24T01:26:00.001+08:00

Lol, they never fail to amaze me..

Just received these messages from this one colleague of mine. Who refuses to talk to me now.

"Well you are smarter and in different level of thinking. Plus you are advanced in your social life. I'm lame,weird and got no life."

"You never failed to remind me, in almost every conversation we had."

"And, I can't change myself for ya."

" I don't match your intelligence and I don't need anyone to bring down my dignity"

All because I called him weird.. Lol.. Some ppl just can't deal with the truth.. And it's not like I ever said anything about how he was fat, ugly nor even mentioned a single word about his blue contact lenses :p

Some people just don't count their blessings :p

Worst, he acts like he's one hell of a hot stuff, so much confidence n shit.. Can't even take a single criticism nor understands sarcasm.. N has to rant like a emo bitch n refuse to talk..

But hey, thank you for making the work of getting rid of you easier for me..

iLilo

Puke!

2011-12-19T19:43:00.001+08:00

You know the feeling, when you are so overwhelmed or disgusted with something till you can actually puke?

I'm feeling that right now..

But just can't decide which is the one I'm feeling.. Hmmph :(

iLilo

Perhaps it's just the dry breads n sandwiches :p

Me!

2011-12-18T04:33:00.001+08:00

Out of boredom, I was reading some of previous blog postings.. Omg! I really can rant and ramble so much!!!

Seriously, what's wrong with me?

iLilo

Horoscope for laughs !

2011-12-16T20:08:00.001+08:00

Since we use to enjoy reading this and laugh, I decided to post the latest I found...I have highlighted what I absolutely agree =)

Anya
Pisces Woman (20th February to 20th March)

A Pisces female is full of womanly charms and at the very first glance, she will look like the girl every guy falls in love with. She looks totally vulnerable, very different from the modern, liberated girl of today. Almost every guy feels like taking her in his arms and protecting her from the big bad world. She is one of those women who stand behind their husbands and support them in every way they can. A Piscean female will never try to dominate her husband. Rather she will like it if you do the usual gallant gestures, like holding the door for her.

She wants her man to love her, protect her and take good care of her. She will lean on him completely, showing full confidence in his strength and abilities. This acts like a solid ego boost to almost every male. She will always be a patient listener, with whom you can share all your secret dreams, desires and hopes. She doesn't have a single masculine streak in her and if you are looking for the typical womanly traits, then Pisces girl is the one for you. She is totally feminine, in all the seasons and at all the places. (pinkest defined :p)

She can sit adoringly with you, admiring your each and every quality. The warmth of her personality makes most the men relax in an instant and bask in the glory of their manhood. Enough for the initial falling in and courtship period! Now comes the time of marriage and life after that. (hahaha) A Pisces woman nags just like all the other women and she has a bad temper too. In her fury, she can turn bitterly sarcastic. The consolation here is that she is gentle for more periods, than she is nudging and prodding.

Infact, majority of the time, she will be yielding, wistful and all womanly. Her scathing tongue will become loose once in a while only. In case you have found the opposite characteristics profile in a Piscean woman, chances are that she suffered extremely harsh treatment at a very young age and the bitterness will be a result of that trauma only. She has certain subtleness around her and may also become a little deceptive at times. She is not mean; it's just that she feels like keeping certain things to herself only. (lol :p)

Then, the deceptiveness also helps her in keeping you interested in her. A Pisces female is very sentimental and even slightly harsh words can cause her to cry hours at end. You can easily imagine what will happen when you really hurt her feelings. She may imagine herself to totally worthless and incapable of the fighting spirit to survive. Then, you will have to assure her that she is appreciated for her great wisdom, empathy and vast understanding. You know that whatever you are saying is true; it's just a matter of convincing her about the same.

You will have to remove her doubts about herself or she may become too closeted in self-defense. A Pisces girl is very shy, emotional and vulnerable. To protect her susceptibility, she often wears a cloak of wittiness, frigidity and independence. She is afraid of exposing her true self, lest people hurt her in the process. She is a true romantic and secretly yearns for a person who will love her, cuddle her, hug her and make her feel loved and protected. As a mother she may be too permissive and find it difficult to teach discipline.

You may have to teach her the fine balance between controlling and pampering. A Piscean female will sacrifice her own dreams to realize the hopes of her children. (Awww..) She may not be good with finances, but will manage to save money if the situation so desires. She will remember the smallest incidents of your life, so you better remember her birthday and your anniversary. She may become dreamy once in a while, but then she will always be there with you, without being asked to. She is someone you will want to take care of, throughout your life!

Nemo
Gemini Woman (22nd May to 21st June) - according to date given here :p

Marrying one Gemini woman is like living with two different wives. (first line itself cracked me up :p) Confused Don't be, we are just talking about her dual personality. She has a dual nature and is capable of displaying different personality traits at different points of time. However, your major task will be to get her to commit. She is so fidgety that it becomes very difficult for her to become deeply involved with one person or place. The mind of a Gemini female never settles down at one place and her thoughts are always wandering.

However, if you do manage to blend with her at the mental, spiritual as well as physical level, you will be introduced to a woman full of passion. (true :) In her youth, she is least likely to be bounded by a relationship or commitment. She may love your most irritating habits one minute and be extremely sarcastic about your new stylish haircut the very next. Maturity may bring a little bit stability in her. All this doesn't mean that Gemini women are not romantic at all. Infact, for them, romance is the one of the easiest means of communication.

Since they always have some thoughts to express, romance never goes out of their life. However, commitment is an entirely different term. A Gemini girl may love your intelligence, but she will also notice your lack of interest in creative arts. It is same the other way round too. Puzzled You should be, at times, even she is baffled by her own complex nature. She is so vivacious and full of life that with her, you will forget even the deepest of troubles. She has the ability to light up the most somber of surroundings with her presence.

A Gemini woman will be full of the small, sentimental gestures that keep alive the romance in a relationship. (true!!) She will always find new ways of telling you how much she loves you and will shower you with her alluring charm. She may act like a typical woman at one point of time, be a nervous wreck the other minute and engage in an intelligent conversation the very next second. She has the feminine charms, but she will never be clinging on to you. One thing that you will never find in a Gemini woman's characteristics profile is monotony and boredom. (agree!)

She finds something good in all the men she meets and then, wants a man who has all of those qualities. However, this can't be and then, she keeps longing for that perfect man! :) She can be your best friend, your sports partner, your racing competitor and your lover, all at the same time. Just remember one thing, she is single-handedly giving you all this, so don't expect consistency from her. A Gemini female can look at other guys, even when she is sincerely in love with you. Change is in her nature and she has to learn to control her own behavior. Just make sure to keep her interested in you and she will remain totally devoted.

She will never be suspicious of you and will expect the same from you in return. You may be out till 3 in the morning and she won't even bat an eyelid. A Gemini girl will always respect your individuality and you will be required to do the same. She may forget to do the dishes every now and then, but you can have the most soul-satisfying conversations with her. She will keep your intellect as well as creativity stimulated. Motherhood will come naturally to her and she will make a happy and gay mother, who will respect the individuality of the children.

Gemini woman makes an excellent hostess and will charm the guests with her grace. They will be treated to the best of cuisine, that too in silver cutlery. She can easily get along with anyone, right from your boss to the peon of your office. With a Gemini wife, you will feel as if you are with a different woman every other day. lol :p When she wants to speak, she will speak and when she wants to fly, she will fly. You don't know how she flies; just listen to her imagination and you will know. She is full of hopes, desires and dreams and you are welcome to share them. Just make sure that you are with her when she needs you!

Me:

Capricorn Woman (22nd December to 20th January)

It is very difficult to define the characteristics profile of a Capricorn girl exactly. She can be the sexy babe on the beach or a scientist sitting in the laboratory, doing experiments that can save mankind. Whatever she is on the outside, when you look inside you will find a girl who looks for security, authority, respect and position. It is an entirely different matter how she seeks to achieve these goals. It may be as the president of a country or as the wife of an ambitious man. She seeks recognition and it doesn't matter how she gets it.

A Capricorn female is like that goat, which has to reach the top of the mountain. It doesn't matter what position she starts and how slowly she walks, she will be at the top much before those, who were running in front of her. She will do it with such subtlety that you wouldn't even know when she crossed all the milestones. She has her aims and ambitions, but they don't come before her family. She can enjoy the role of a wife or a mother as much as that of the CEO of the biggest MNC. However, you will have to provide her with equivalent respect and security.

Almost all the Capricorn women have immaculate etiquettes. They have an inherent sense of social elegance, modesty and conventional look. Though she looks completely calm, composed and balanced, don't think she doesn't have mood swings. She can become really depressed if she thinks that someone has misjudged or ill-treated her. In such a case, she may brood for months at a time. This stems from the fact that she does not feel as secure as she seems to be and fears being ridiculed or laughed at.

It is advisable not to tease a Capricorn girl; she may take it too literally. Though she may pretend otherwise, she seeks as much compliments as the other girls, probably even more. Show her that you appreciate her and make her feel secure. It will help her in opening up and showing her deliberately controlled passion. A Capricorn girl's personality doesn't include the trait of wishful thinking. She sees only those dreams that can be converted into reality. She enters a boat only when she knows that the waters are safe.

She will emphasize heavily on social etiquettes and you never see her serving the guests in anything but crystal cutlery. There will always be something fresh about her beauty and she will never ever be unattractive, even when she is wearing those hair-curlers. A Capricorn female will appear to be extremely confident, but inside she is quite unsure about her appearance. You will have to reassurance her time and again that she is attractive. She will always be honest and will expect the same from you.

At the same time, you will have to respect her family. Remember when you marry a Capricorn woman; you marry her family and relatives too. If ever you criticize her family members, better ensure that the criticism is constructive or she will never forgive you. Her love for you will never prevent her from taking care of her family. The plus point of this attitude is that she will be equally considerate towards your family too and give them the same respect as her own fellows. She will never mind if you cancel your holiday trip to pay for dad's operation..

The home of a Capricorn female will always be sparkling clean, that to with effortless ease. She is a realist and daydreaming is not her idea of passing the time. She has the ability to make even the dullest of surroundings looks warm and attractive, with her earthly passion. She will never stop you from dreaming, as long as there is bread in the house and the dreams have atleast some chances of turning into reality. As a mother, she will teach the kids discipline, economy, practicality, etiquettes and respect for elders. Make her feel loved, protected, needed and cared for and in return, she will support you in realizing your dreams and give you a deep, lasting love!

:)
Lilo

That awkward moment, when...

2011-12-15T15:17:00.001+08:00

...You are in a taxi, roads are blocked and traffic jam everywhere. The driver tries to explain something quite seriously in a language you don't understand... And when the only three words you can make out from the news going on and on in radio are "explosion, security and police".

iLilo

Me!

2011-12-08T04:26:00.001+08:00

I haven't blogged in a awfully long time.. Well, I'm afraid of writing about good things.. As I'm always scared of jinxing things, which I'm very good at.. And to write about bad things, there's only the men stories that I don't wanna go back to.. (I still hate them all, btw)

Anyways...

I just got back from Paris 3 days ago.. N now I'm at the airport again waiting to board my flight to Brussels..

Life has never been more hectic.. N I did a crazy fly back across the world to spend 3 days at home.. Almost every single person I met, asked why on earth I came back.. Surprisingly even my mom asked me to stay.. And others simply decided I'm crazy..

But I'm glad I did.. Thanks Anya, for understanding and asking me to follow my heart.. I'm glad I asked you.. (But I'm sad that I didn't get to see you getting in shape :p )

Nevertheless, Paris was great, the most beautiful place I've ever been to.. Nice weather and extremely romantic city.. I would love to go back there again.. Hopefully not alone next time! :p

Now, let's hope Brussels will be kind to me, especially with the weather front ;)

iLilo

Honeybees

2011-12-06T08:47:00.000+08:00

It's the little things in life that make a big difference :) Like ....

.... When a friend that I've been missing for some time suddenly SMS's me to say she's been thinking about me too and wonders how I'm doing

.... When I finally can understand a schematic diagram of a low voltage switchgear

.... When Santa suddenly appears in the office at 3P.M. and hands out candies

.... When my other half rushes to pick up something I've dropped cause I'm not as flexible as I used to be, with my watermelon of a belly

.... When it's that time of the year to put up the Christmas tree and bake cookies

:)
Anya

2011-11-15T20:00:00.001+08:00

When the sales girls starts addressing you as "kak"..

When the neighbors children start addressing you as "Aunty"..

When you need to dye your hair every month once at least..

You can be sure, you are turning 30..

Just saying..

iLilo

Singapore

2011-11-04T22:13:00.001+08:00

If there is one thing I never feel guilty buying no matter where i am and what the currency conversion is, got to be this:

Done and over with Singapore! And for the record, one random trainee actually came up to me and said he's so impressed by me and my teaching skills :p

iLilo
~ looking forward to Paris! :)

La-dee-dum...

2011-10-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

The Deepavali festivities this year came with a barrage of attention from inquisitive and excited relatives about my growing belly. While I totally appreciate everyone's excitement about the arrival of their first niece/nephew/grandchild/great-grandchild, I was feeling very uncomfortable about all the extra attention. I cringed inside everytime my dad announced to everyone within hearing distance, "Can you see her tummy!!" and when everyone eyes or hands went straight to my tummy followed by comments like, "You're so small!" or "Why are you so thin?". I seriously felt like I should have given a fake pregnancy-related excuse and stayed home yet I felt really selfish for feeling that way.

So I've been feeling pretty down the last couple of days - fighting between what I'm feeling versus what I'm telling myself I should feel.

Today I came across this in babycenter.com that totally made me feel better to know that I'm not alone!

At this point, you may find your belly becoming a hand magnet. It's perfectly okay to tell folks who touch your tummy that you'd rather they didn't. And if people are telling you that you look smaller or bigger than you should at this point, remember that each woman grows — and shows — at her own rate. What's important is that you see your practitioner for regular visits so she can make sure your baby's growth is on track.

Although I don't think I can bring myself to tell friends and relatives who are happy for me to not touch my belly (hey, how would you like people just randomly coming up to you and touching you and judging your body?), I can tell them very firmly that small tummy or not, my baby and me are healthy and we're both growing at a healthy rate so far.

Now I just have to get through Christmas .....

~Anya~

The Stupid Me

2011-10-22T23:42:00.001+08:00

Do people deserve a second chance? Does it really work? I really need to know.

I cant stop asking myself, the what-if questions..

I am pretty done with men. I don't think I can trust anyone anymore. I have just met one too many.

I broke up but I didn't stop loving him even when he did all that he did, for me I didn't have to spend the rest of my life with him just because I love him. I thought I was selfless.

Now that I have lost my trust on him and almost every other men, and that i am still considering being with him, does that make me selfish?

Or maybe just plain stupid. I know.

iLilo

Men #Finale

2011-10-21T09:10:00.001+08:00

I have talked so much about men on how dumb they are.

But I have finally realized, I am the stupid one after all.

I broke up.

iLilo

The girl in the green scarf

2011-10-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

Remember the girl in the green scarf?? How Becky had to be that gal..

I had that moment today :) I found that one green scarf that I must have.. It was love at first sight.. And of cos I bought it without thinking twice...

But unlike becky, there wasn't any cute guy to borrow me money.. Only had my good ol' shiny card.. But no regrets, as I get to be THE girl in green scarf now :)

........

On other note, i hate Singapore for having everything so cheap (before conversion of cos) just so not fair since we are like so close by.. N they have more of everything..

Oh well.. Have a pounding head n feet ache now.. Probably burned my entire allowance for this trip, n crashed the currency converter app on my phone.. So yeah, in short had a productive shopping day! :)

iLilo

Lunch Crazies

2011-10-12T16:21:00.000+08:00

Mr Silent: He rarely says a word, but when he does it's too mumble something intelligible. He makes up for his reserved nature with his maniac driving skills. His car looks all beat up and abused although it's hardly 3 years old.

Mr IT: One of the IT guys in the office. He's short, dark skinned with spiky blond hair and he wears a pair of "guy" earrings. He once was trying out a hacking tool at work and managed to cause a virus attack alert for all the company employees in Malaysia. No biggie - only about 700 of us ;p

Ms Vege: A vegetarian since birth, she's gotta be one of the most tensed up people at work I've ever met. Almost everything at work is urgent and highly stressful and she has no qualms about shouting at the customer. However, outside of work, she's fun, boisterous and knows how to have a good laugh. It's like she has a split personality!

Mr Metro: Either he's metrosexual or gay, I can't tell 'cause I'm just observing from his dressing and mannerisms. It doesn't matter anyway, because of all the guys, he's the only one I can have a sane, light hearted, intelligent conversation with.

Mr Philosophy: Or maybe I should call him Mr Smarty Pants since he'll be getting his IR pretty soon. Conversations with him usually require a higher level of understanding and he can pull out random facts or quotes from his head like "mankind's brain is like a monkey that is drunk and has been bitten by a scorpion". Say what??

Mr Scotland: The only conversation he can have is about his stint in Scotland as a grad student. No matter what everyone else is talking about, he has a uncanny ability to drop something - anything! -about Scotland in the conversation; the scenery is gorgeous, the weather is wonderful, the kilt is so macho (eerkkss!), the bread doesn't upset his stomach and on and on he goes. But get this, he's a pure Indian vegetarian (as in he doesn't like any other food except Indian food), he's only traveled within 3 hours of KL, he doesn't drink or smoke, bald and he's been single all his life. I get very annoyed over the fact that he has never bothered to explore his own country and sample the abundance of cuisine we have here, yet dare to diss it and glorify Scotland (hey, I have nothing against Scotland, it's a beautiful country!).

~Anya~

2011-10-11T23:08:00.001+08:00

In one of my very first trainings with the senior employees, I was told that "we go all over the world; but there are only two countries that is so difficult to handle". One being India and the other is singapore.

And as usual I'm one of the lucky ones to experience both in the very beginning. Did India. Regretted, hated, survived. Then I took a long break, not wanting to go anywhere else. I've been idle for sometime now.

And now it's my time to face the very famous Singaporeans. Although, I'm all like bring it on, I can do this etc. And thanks to my stupid colleagues, I'm actually feeling smarter these days.

Truth is, I haven't booked my return flight. There's this tiny little inner voice keeps telling me, maybe they'll just ask you to leave on the very first day.

Sigh. Hope I survive this.
Singapore, here I come. ~~Be kind please~~

iLilo

Men (to be..) #25

2011-10-02T21:01:00.001+08:00

Conversation between my 4 year old nephew and I

Me: what do you want to be?

Him: I wanna be a police

Me: why police?

Him: so I can shoot people.. I want to shoot everyone

Me: oh..

Him: thi, wat you want to be?

me: hmm, I want to be a soldier..

Him: nooo! You cannot..

Me: why? I also want to shoot people..

Him: (chuckles) you are a girl la..

Me: so what? I want to be..

Him: nooo, cannot!!!

Me: Ok fine, I want to be astronaut

Him: haiyoo, cannot la.. You girl.. you be teacher la

Me: teacher?? Eee, I dowan!!

Him: hmmmmm, ok fine.. You be a baby sitter!!

Me: (wtf??)

And I thought I was sexist.. Kids these days...

Oh btw, he wouldn't let his younger brother touch anything that is pink in color.. Favorite line "pink is for girls!!!"

By,
iLilo

Dear Idiot..

2011-09-27T21:03:00.001+08:00

Dear Idiot,

I am quiet; reserved and anti social. But that's for me to decide. You don't get to judge me. I am the way I am for a reason.

After meeting so many people of your kind (read:idiot), the filter between my mind and mouth has evaded over the years. So my speech now is limited to swear words, curses and it's relatives.

To compensate the loss of the filter, I now have a new nerve connecting my mind directly to my middle finger. So yeah, there you go. If you don't wanna regret your life hearing a quiet-reserved-shy looking Indian girl speaking her mind, stay out of my way.

And the hand action might give you sleepless nights unless you are used to getting that a lot, of course.

And my vocabulary now that is limited to eff sounding words when translated to Tamil will sound so vulgar that your ears might start bleeding. So yeah, now stop asking why I don't speak in Tamil.

And I don't want to have a conversation with you because I'm least interested in knowing what shit you had for dinner nor how sucky your life is. No matter how sucky your life is, I know I will win hands down having to tolerate people like you everyday.

And btw, mind you, I'm not open minded just because I speak only f words now. My mind is so close that it doesn't take in any criticism at all. So if you got stuff to say like I am weird or complicated, I only take them as compliment with a smile of victory. So if that's not what you meant, please shove it down you know where.

Thank you very much.

Yours sincerely,
iLilo

Whatte Surprise?!?

2011-09-08T20:32:00.001+08:00

Today, my boyfriend and I both received a "box of surprise" at work..

He received the above and I received the below!

Not saying anything anymore!

iLilo

P/s: whoever who still thinks there is god please go jump off a building today! kthxbai.

Men #22

2011-09-08T20:09:00.001+08:00

After trying all the tricks up my sleeve; I finally gave up! Some people just don't get it. So I succumbed to this:

Me:
r u married?

Him:
I am single

Him:
guess u r single too

Me:
why do u guess taht?

Him:
just a guess
am i rite?

Me:
no..

Him
oh. so u are married then

Me:
soon to be married

Him:
great
my advance wishes to u

Me:
thank u

Him:
anyway i guessed it rite

Him:
U r still single
he he
only soon to be married

Me:
ok

Him:
remember ar u r still single!

Me:
Sorry, I gtg

Him:
Talk to u tomorrow
see you
ta ta
bye bye
c u

No words!
(Anya, and you thought not yet will work? :p )

iLilo

My Little pleasures of life..

2011-09-07T20:04:00.001+08:00

There's nothing in this world that can beat the pleasure of:

- at the end of a very stressful day, walking into a random but familiar store and stuffing the basket with all the things that ~~you don't actually need~~ you will need in future

- and ending the sweet adventure by swiping that shiny little card ~~that has been calling out my name each time I open my wallet~~ and giving the best ever signature

Aaaaaahh, such bliss! :)

iLilo

New crisis..

2011-09-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

As it is my list of quarter life crises are long enough.. Now I've got a new one to add..

I've just realized that once you have surpassed that certain age and as you near the big thirties; people, especially the less brainy men, no longer ask simple questions like "are you seeing someone?" or "do u have a bf?" like how guys used to ask back in those days..

Now, the golden question seem to be the one n only "are you married?" and full-stop.

And they go on making their own assumptions or probably they don't care less.

It's hard for a girl like me to tell without looking overly "perasan'ed" that "hey, I may not be married; but I'm not interested in you!" (and I already have or am seeing someone )

It annoys me that men assume if you are ~~hot~~ old and not married, you must be single and ready to mingle..

Being back in the men-dominated-engineering world this is my latest crisis that I am finding it hard to deal with :p

Anya gave me a brilliant suggestion to start introducing myself as "I have a boyfriend; and my name is.... "

I thought that was a good one ;)

iLilo

Daily dilemma

2011-08-22T21:05:00.001+08:00

I did a big batch of ironing n decided to count the amount of clothes I have.. Only working clothes that is..

I have enough clothes to last me for 7 weeks without having to repeat any single piece.. And this doesn't include the days I decide to go casual to work..

The beauty of it is that, yet, every morning I always think i have nothing to wear n constantly remind myself to do more shopping :)

iLilo

Toh Zinda Ho

2011-08-22T12:21:00.003+08:00

I need to go away

On my own

Somewhere peaceful, somewhere its beautiful to be outdoors

Somewhere the sun shines

Somewhere where the breeze will caress away all my worries

In that soothing way that only a breeze knows

I need to feel me

I need to feel alive

Because I’ve not been feeling the same

Since I turned a quarter century old

Its been 3 years

I still haven’t got back my mojo

Not for work, and not for life

I thought I needed a change in job

So dusted off the resume I last wrote 5 years ago

Spent 3 weeks writing it up again

And started the wait game

Still not knowing what is it that i want to do

Still not knowing despite all these years what i have passion for

Still lacking the courage to break the mould

Still questioning my judgment

Not easy starting all over again

And I haven’t even started

I tried shopping

Didn’t help

Started praying more

Helped a bit but still feel something is lacking

Tried having varieties to the social scene

Still came back feeling bored and empty inside

The one thing that keeps me going a little bit is

Running

So I run

I walk

I jog

Every other night when I can

So that I feel at peace

I have conversations with Him

I try to organize my thoughts

Some days I cry when I jog

Some days I feel like it’s a good day

Some days I feel lonelier than ever

I know I am looking for an escape

An escape from parents who are too disappointed with me

An escape from relatives who think im selfish because im single

An escape from friends who mean well

An escape from a person whom I’ve fallen for but one who doesn’t feel the same

Saddens me that he doesn’t care with the same magnitude

Saddens me that he doesn’t think of me the way I do

Saddens me that other men show it and he doesn’t

Saddens me that other girls get more and I don’t

But I know its not his fault

He is who he is

I am who I am

We fall short of each other’s expectations

Expectation is a bad thing to have, he once said

How true, I think back now

Home life is not the same anymore

Not since what happened

Saddens me that my own parents fail to understand us

Saddens me that they fail to see why it happened that way

Saddens me they blame the her

Saddens me that I cant do anything more for them

Saddens me that to make them happy again i risk being unhappy for life

Saddens me that I cant give the answers they or my friends search when they look at me

Saddens me that I started dodging personal questions from my own best friends

Saddens me that I have started to avoid them in ways i can

Saddens me i feel ashamed in front of them when i shouldn't

Saddens me that I might grow old alone

Saddens me that might not have my own babies

Saddens me that I don’t have a home of my own

Saddens me that the dreams I had as a young girl got crushed by adulthood by something called Reality

My past still haunts me

In many ways that I choose to still deny

I dream about it sometimes

And I wake up looking for answers

Not knowing if i can ever let go of the hurt

Wanting to move away from it

And now my dog of 13 years

Has been showing signs of old age

He doesn’t run the way he used to

He doesn’t wag his tail the way he used to

He doesn’t look forward for his walks anymore

I used to have a hard time keeping up with him during his walks

But now we walk side by side

That too after I slow my usual pace

Saddens me that I might be losing him

Saddens me that our lives wont be the same without him around

And I dread for the day

When the only thing that keeps my family together might be going away

So yes

I need to go away

From everything and everyone

Because I don’t recognize ME anymore

Or maybe I never got to know her

I hope

I pray

I wish

I’ll get a job that takes me far from here

But alas

Im here on a Monday morning

In my office

Being what I hate being (read: emo)

Writing what I hate writing (read: bimbo-like rantings)

But I know its not just a phase

Not when it has been around for 3 years

Or more if I really start reflecting

So yeah…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VI-q8Aszay0

-fin-
N.e.m.o

p/s: no follow up questions please, tq

2011-08-16T08:38:00.002+08:00

Being introduced by my father to his friend ...

These are my children ...

So you're the pilot and you're the doctor and you're married!

:P %$#!?! :P

Men #22

2011-08-11T22:33:00.001+08:00

Oh the freaking lord. It's been more than 4 years together, and only today I realize that he has actually never, I really mean never; he has actually never said the three magic words to me in person before.. Never to my face nor my eyes.. Gawd! Can you believe that?

iLilo

Cockscrew

2011-08-11T11:54:00.002+08:00

What a roller coaster ride the last couple of months have been!

It's been a month at the new job and I'm slowly getting the hang of it. However I'm not sure how long it'll take for me to get used to waking up before 6 a.m. everyday, no flexi-hours and crawling through the traffic jams. Those are definitely the things I miss from my old job.

All that aside, the ~~craziest~~ ~~scariest~~ ~~most-hormone-overdosed~~ most wonderful thing has happened to me.

I'm pregnant!

It's still feels really strange to say that although I'm nearing the end of the 1st trimester. I'm waiting for the intense joy and contentment to happen but thus far every little change in my body has either caused me to be worried or in denial. However it's been comforting to know I'm not the only one who feels this way, judging from the number of forums and blogs by first time mummies-to-be. They assured me that the 2nd trimester will be better.

Despite the worrying and the tiredness and the bloating and the occasional nausea, seeing my tiny baby doing water-acrobatics on the ultrasound made it all worth it. Ok, ok, I know I sound like a typical sappy pregnant lady so I shall stop - for now.

~Anya with a baby-bump~

Men #21

2011-08-08T21:02:00.001+08:00

I forgot. The doctor that I'm seeing is a man. No wonder he's so dumb.

I tell him I've lost 5kgs, he says good job and asks me to lose 6kg more!!!!

F.u! F.u! F.u!!

iLilo

Good to be back!

2011-07-30T19:51:00.001+08:00

It feels so good to be back.. It's a feeling that is hard to describe.. To some it may seem exaggerating..

Yes, to be honest i have only been away a few days.. N to somewhere so close to my country.. Although the journey was unnecessarily long across cities..

The point is, I am starting to dislike this traveling.. Although that was my passion n all n the only reason I considered this job..

I'm so new at this, but I'm feeling like I've been doing this all my life.. Thats not a very good sign..

I always loved keeping myself busy to avoid unnecessary thinking.. Too much thinking leads to too much problems.. I always wanted to live myself without having to think what will happen the next day..

More than the job, I'm hating it that I've so much time of 'me-time' which is making me think too much..

Me no like :(

iLilo

I jinxed it!

2011-07-18T21:29:00.002+08:00

Today I confirm that officially I have the "mulut yg paling masin di dunia"!!

Btw, mulut masin (direct translation for salty mouth) is actually a phrase to describe one that is capable of making a statement (mostly bad ones) that comes true immediately after..

So yeah, I have that natural talent or maybe curse.. Many times the statements I have made, of cos not planned ones, have immediately come true..

After the tormentous experience of traveling in Mumbai roads, I have been acting like my car is some new found treasure and I've been totally in love with it since my return..

So this morning I drove to work and as usual prepared to have my breakfast in car.. And for no fucking reason I tell myself proudly, I can even have breakfast in car while driving and nothing will happen to me.. And I have to add, imagine doing this in India with a cynical laugh..

So yeah, karma is for real too.. Just when I'm bout to finish my breakfast n pack up, I bang the car in front of me!!

Period. Nothing else to say :(

iLilo

P/s: on a positive note, I've lost 4kgs to date n my jeans has gone one size smaller after ages :)

Mumbai Day #11

2011-07-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

There are three bomb blast in Mumbai.. I don't know what the hell am I suppose do!! Aaarghh...

Just when I'm dying to come back.. My luck :(

iLilo

Mumbai - Day #10

2011-07-12T22:38:00.001+08:00

Conversation between me n waiter.

Me: Can I have a fried rice?

Him: Ok. Which gravy you want madam?

Me: only fried rice.

Him: No, ma'am. Fried rice are very dry. You need gravy.

Really now?!

iLilo

Mumbai Day#10

2011-07-12T21:37:00.001+08:00

I have had enough of India already. Can't wait to leave. The whole of last night I was having vertigo while sleeping.

Indians look for the cheapest option and they suck you dry. I have been asked to support 3 remote sites customers in different locations while training the local ones. They don't get it that, it's impossible to do technical training via video conferencing.

Sigh. Two more days. Take me back, god!

iLilo

Mumbai Day #5

2011-07-07T22:26:00.001+08:00

I'm having a discussion with a guy in my desk.. Suddenly I hear "ma'am, may I?"

I turn around to see, onw guy actually has MY water bottle in his hand n before I can revert from the stunned moment, he drinks the water from my bottle..

*faint* they never fail to amaze me..

iLilo

Mumbai Day #4

2011-07-06T21:37:00.001+08:00

Conversation over lunch, having pasta in sambar..

Guy #1: Are you from Indonesia ma'am?

Me: No, I'm from Malaysia

Guy #2: Malaysia and Japan same country na?

Me: *faint*wakeup*faint*wakeup*
No!!!

Guy #2: Sorry ma'am, my general knowledge is very low..

Like seriously, I'm suppose to teach these guys?? No wonder they ask me thousand questions..

iLilo

Day #1 Mumbai

2011-07-04T01:43:00.001+08:00

My first impression and conclusion (since I've actually been here before)

1. India is so dislikable.
2. All the desi bloggers (including my favorite ones) must be fantasy writers.
3. Indians love to stare.
4. They will never get it that I am not Indian - Indian.
5. India is only nice when you are indoor.
6. India makes me grateful for my country.
7. Indian men carry (small) umbrella everywhere.
8. Indians are bad with directions and everything is "just by the corner".

On a positive note, there's this thing called shopping :) Look forward to that..

iLilo

Mumbai

2011-07-01T19:32:00.001+08:00

My new job is taking me to Mumbai tomorrow.. This is probably the most rushed traveling that I have ever done.. I panicked like crazy, a little calm now.. Hopefully it isn't the calm before the storm..

This is also my first official Client assignment.. Keeping fingers crossed it will go well, as Indians has always been the hardest customers..

On another note, in my first job, my first assignment was also in Mumbai.. I was there like a lost child in between all the hustle n bustle of the crazy Mumbai city..

Hopefully Mumbai reserves some extra luck for me!

Ciao,
iLilo

2011-06-22T21:46:00.001+08:00

One after another!

One after another!

I hate myself!!!!

I hate all frigging doctors!!

I can't be fckin living on pills!!

Aaarrgghhhhh!!!

iLilo

21.06.2011

2011-06-21T15:07:00.001+08:00

We all cringe as every year that goes by adds another wrinkle to our face and another white hair to our head. But if you're as gorgeous as Nemo with a fantastic personality to boot, we think it hardly matters.

Yes, it's Nemo's birthday today!!

Just like her namesake, our Nemo is a bubbly burst of sunshine and laughter in our lives.

However, we know she's are not just about laughs and having a good time. She's a strong independent woman with passionate views on life. Yet despite the macho exterior that she successfully projects, she got a marshmallow heart; soft and sweet.

She's the kind of friend you can count on to ~~yell at~~ tell off someone ~~sarcastically~~ politely who's being a bitch to you and at the same be sensitive enough to be your shoulder to cry on and an ever ready ear to listen.

So Nemo, on your special day, we just want to say you're a rare gem and we hope that you know that.

Happy 28th dearest Nemo!

xoxo

Pinkscalers

Masterchef in making

2011-06-17T09:42:00.001+08:00

Oh, did I tell mom is away for 10 days? Sorry for sounding like a school kid, but I have absolute freedom n the kitchen n tv all to myself for the next 9 days ;) wheeee...

So, now I get to be the masterchef and this is my first production!

My first very own salad! Honestly I have never made salad before in my life.. N truth is, I threw away the first attempt :p

But glad my roasted (not grilled) chicken salad (with no dressing), wasn't great but edible (thanks to chili sauce :p) I'm Malaysian ok? Don't judge :p

iLilo

Record broken!

2011-06-16T20:36:00.001+08:00

Despite all the lame attempts I made to skip gym today; I finally went. And actually broke a record :)

Did 3km non stop at good speed in 15mins =) yay!! N probably did another 5km with no cramps n no choking for breath.. I'm getting good at this. Woohoo!

And also officially lost 3.2kg since 9th May.. But must say that I have been skipping diet n gym a bit too many days nowadays..
Not proud of it :( n also still no noticeable difference physically :(

For now I am just glad I can skip an extra hole in my belt :p

iLilo

The winding road

2011-06-15T14:14:00.001+08:00

Finally I've done it.

I've resigned.

After almost 5 years of LDR, I've got a job where N is. At first I was extremely happy, than the panic set in. How the hell am I supposed to learn up a new industry and work -alone- there?! After getting some sense knocked into me by N and the Pinkscalers, what I feel now is mostly "I can't believe this is actually happening! Dare I start to dream about what our life will be like together?"

During the interview, my future manager asked me "Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?". And for the life of me, I couldn't give him a proper answer. Lucky that didn't cost me the job!

But how do I explain to him that for the past 5 years, I've never planned more than a week in advance? If I start wondering and worrying about the future, I'd drive myself crazy because of all the unknowns. Many have asked me, how are you managing LDR for all these years. Well, N being amazing is one reason. Another is, I can only handle one day at a time. Beyond that my brain goes into overload and has a meltdown. I'm probably the most surprised person that all that days have accumulated into almost 5 years, more so because when N first moved away, I made it clear to him I'm not a LDR person.

I know the challenges ahead of me are many and varied but I know what I need to do.

One day at a time.

One step at a time.

I hope I remember and follow my own advice.

~Anya~

Langkawi holiday!

2011-05-28T21:11:00.001+08:00

Recently we celebrated 10 beautiful years of our friendship in a beautiful island..

The car we used to roam around the island..

Our cute cabin..

The beautiful beach..

Some delicious food..

Our ritual spa visit ;)

Spa time! <3

Yoga by the beach ;)

Enjoying the sea view..

And of course leaving our footprints ;)

Overall, it was a short but a great holiday! =)

luv ya gals! Can't wait for our next one..

iLilo

Men #22

2011-05-25T08:45:00.001+08:00

SMS received at 12.54am from Jackass..

"If i never meet my ex n god make me meet u 1st ,than i trust god exist! But sadly maybe u wont like me ! Its ok xxxx , at least he give me u as my team mate ! Hahaha! God is just good as he give me u as my friend n he is great wen he make u my best friend ! Good nite ! Cover me 2mlw ok"

Speechless,
iLilo

2011-05-19T22:25:00.001+08:00

Today is day 10, since I officially went on a strict diet. The fact that I've lasted 10 days actually dieting, itself deserves a big round of applause. Proud of myself :) extra proud that I have actually lost 1.5kg in the 10 days.. Not big amount, but guess at least I'm on the right track this time.

Hopefully I don't add on extra 1.5kg to what I have lost in langkawi :p oh yes, it's finally happening..

We pinkscalers are off to langkawi to celebrate 10 years of friendship =) deserves a better blog entry all bout this, but thanks to nemo felt extremely loved today and absolutely missed all the girls..

Cheers to our beach holiday and 10 more years to come! :)

iLilo

Patchwork

2011-05-19T14:36:00.000+08:00

Headquarters : The Beginning

What passes as Indian food in Tmn U ;P

I still refer to Techno as Lucky Town Music :)

So many memories here - good, bad and freaky :)

We finally got rid of The Bitch. yay!

Oh yeah .. we studied too..I guess :)

It's been a fantastic 10 years and I can't imagine my life without you gals.

Love you dearies!

Muuaaxx!!

xoxo,

Anya

Men #21

2011-05-18T23:47:00.001+08:00

So the annoy-the-shit-out-of me guy, walks into the office.. Wait, he needs a name, I foresee many more blog entries, so let's call him jackass (rhymes with his name)..

So jackass walks into the office, goes to the cubicle behind mind n calls out "hey, turn around, see this!"

And I turn around and get shocked, seeing the jackass standing there with his shirt unbuttoned revealing his hairy chest!!! I go, WTF???

And he point towards some burn mark on his chest, and ask me to guess wat it is?? realizing my still WTF face on, he explains that those are self burned marks with cigarette to make him forget his ex who dumped him like centuries ago..

I shouted at him, "are you freaking nuts?? What on earth is wrong with you??"

N he actually laughs n proudly explains that this is nothing compared to his brother who once took 40 panadols at one go...

Seriously god, why do u do this to me? You know I have more than enough patience.

iLilo

Open Letter to our #1 Troll

2011-05-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

Dear Beast,

We thank you for your interest in our blog and your dedication in procuring good images for our blog gallery.
*Although, there is a general consensus here, that you might need to start getting some REAL hobbies.

Pertaining to the email sent by ‘miss S’, you don’t have to disregard it. We think it was cute :)
She was clearly in a rush and hence, and rest assured, our greatminds are still sharp as a tack. This was just a small oversight on her part.

We apologize for causing you such a rush of excitement that you actually pee’ed in your pants upon discovering ‘a name’.

As for whose nick belongs to who, why spoil the mystery eh? Since you like it that way, we shall keep it that way. After all, we like to keep our avid readers happy :)

Thank you for your continuous support and we look forward in receiving your comments/brickbats on our lame blog.

Have a good day!
Yours truly,
PinkScalers Inc.

China Specialties

2011-05-14T20:40:00.001+08:00

The little fun that kept me going in china ;)

Knife cutting??!!

Poor thing, got fired :p

Try to picture onions blasting mutton :p

Wood beard??? Dun wanna know what it is :p

However fried also can..

Speechless..

Self explanatory :)

Vegetarian choices: beef, pork & chicken :)

iLilo

Men #21

2011-05-12T15:53:00.000+08:00

Remember the douchebag that I met while I went for my interview? Yeah, he is now here to annoy the shit out of me...

My replies in red..

Yesterday’s conversation:

Madam,Busy?

nope, y?

Answering 100 questions

joke?

U only said .. So im 101 right ?

hehehehe

not funny at all

Oh really ..annoying right ? Tats my aim too ..make u angry and hate me maks

u dun have to try too hard u know?

Thanks

This is wat i waited

Oh Really ...

I will keep this is my database as well

Thanks a milion my friend

Check out your friends list, I am deleting you

Today's conversation:

2011-05-12 10:15:22

Allo

2011-05-12 10:15:32

hie..

2011-05-12 10:15:33

Busy huh

2011-05-12 10:15:41

nope..

2011-05-12 10:15:40

Look bad only ?

2011-05-12 10:15:47

I mean bad mood

2011-05-12 10:15:54

Did i did anything wrong

2011-05-12 10:16:01

huh? how u know?

2011-05-12 10:16:08

Sorry lah ..never mean anything ..just kidding only lah

2011-05-12 10:16:28

I mean , if i the one make u bad mood i mean '

2011-05-12 10:16:40

Anyway ..y bad mood ?

2011-05-12 10:16:43

how u know i bad mood? U can see me is it???

2011-05-12 10:16:55

Hemm ...tats good thing about me

2011-05-12 10:17:03

I can sence...serious ..

2011-05-12 10:17:38

Wat happend ..tell me if u wan to ..sharing is caring and caring is love u noe

2011-05-12 10:17:42

So share ok

2011-05-12 10:17:45

but unfortunately, im in a awesome mood today..

2011-05-12 10:17:53

Poiii

2011-05-12 10:18:06

u dont know me...

2011-05-12 10:18:22

Oh really huh ..u not hard to read my dear ..

2011-05-12 10:18:28

U are damm easy to read

2011-05-12 10:18:32

Hehehehe

2011-05-12 10:18:38

thats wat u think

2011-05-12 10:19:05

Hahahahaha...of couse i haven noe u yet but , i noe some basic thing about u my dear

2011-05-12 10:19:17

like wat?

2011-05-12 10:19:21

Say yes or not for this ..

2011-05-12 10:19:32

2011-05-12 10:20:23

If ppl listen to u , u will be very happy and when u need to listen to ppl ..tats the hardest thing for u ...

2011-05-12 10:20:34

Corect ?

2011-05-12 10:20:40

2011-05-12 10:21:05

Hahahahaha...to say "no " for u its tat hard right

2011-05-12 10:21:26

huh?

2011-05-12 10:21:49

I mean to mengaku lah ..

2011-05-12 10:21:53

Ego ...

2011-05-12 10:21:57

Ego ...

2011-05-12 10:22:00

ego ...

2011-05-12 10:22:03

watever

(after a long bragging session bout himself)

12 11:00:48

when u joined huawei?

2011-05-12 11:02:32

Y huh ?

2011-05-12 11:02:40

just asked

2011-05-12 11:02:26

anyway ..last year Mac

2011-05-12 11:02:42

U budak sgt baru ok

2011-05-12 11:02:50

Im ur super super seniur

2011-05-12 11:03:03

so ..shut up and folow me OKKKK

2011-05-12 11:03:15

in ur dreams

2011-05-12 11:03:20

Wow ....

2011-05-12 11:03:29

Serious really nice talking to u

2011-05-12 11:03:38

Ur ex will regret forever

and someone please, please, kill me right now!!!

Lilo

Men #20

2011-05-11T09:42:00.001+08:00

It's been few years since I started writing bout "men".. Till today, I still standby that all men are either dumb or just pure assholes.. Nothing more, nothing less!!

And some rare/special ones are simply heartless, insensitive piece of shit..

iLilo

Mothers day! Yay!

2011-05-08T14:20:00.001+08:00

I don't know why everyone is updating happy mothers day on Facebook status, it's not like their mothers are gonna read it anyway...

Oh well, someone has got something to celebrate..

I'm not allowed to celebrate mothers day anymore.. Did ya know? Yeah, now that's new.. I'm such a "great" daughter that my mom strictly don't even want to hear a wish from me.. How lucky am I? :)

iLilo

Nothing has hurt me more than this.

Yin & yang

2011-05-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

This is so true... Yin & Yang...

Life is so sucky n so good at the same time...

And I'm sinking in between not being able to find a balance..

On a irrelevant note:
I wonder why people die so easily in all the Grey's n Private Practice that I religiously follow... All the weird sicknesses n accidents? I can do with some right now... hear me god..

Cheers,
iLilo

Snowing no more

2011-05-05T18:32:00.000+08:00

I'm staring at a huge mountain of work that I need to get done by Monday but I have no idea how to do it. Strangely I'm not panicking yet. I think I've broken through some sort of stress barrier. I've gone into a realm of calm that lies just beyond that maximum stress point. Like the sound barrier. What lies behind the sound barrier when a jet surpasses the speed of sound; non-sound?

Back in university, when I was faced with an impossible assignment, I knew I could always count on the Gods of Computer Engineering to provide me with their assignments to get "inspiration" on how to get started with mine.

I know those days are long gone and I have to figure this out on my own, as I always have at work..but I miss Snowflake. The invisible member of the Pinkscalers. From first year in university, we were group mates for almost all assignments and we were a fantastic team. Whether we knew what we were doing or not, somehow together, we always avoided failing anything.

Snowflake, I could really use your insight on how to do the work that's drowning me.

~anya~

Day #63 - Shenzhen & Hong Kong

2011-04-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

It's officially my final day in Shenzhen.. Well, I made it official. I was getting bored of being there even tough I truly enjoyed the freedom and stress free'ness of life (not work).

Currently at HK airport. I am putting up here tonight since I pandai-pandai when and brought my flight forward. This was the only option left and I had to take it. Well, I guess it would be an interesting experience, as I have never stayed in a airport for such long hours. Alone especially. But I see some white chicks sleeping very comfortably on sleeping bags just around the corner. I think I'll do fine as long as my laptop don't die on me. Slim chance though.

Well, even tough I have been happily counting down days to get back since last week, truth is, I am sad to leave this place. (China? Seriously?) Ok, maybe not the place. But the life (what life did I have here??) Ok, maybe not the life. But the freedom (hello, what freedom in communist country??)

Oh well, I am sure I will miss something. At least the fresh towel & sheets :p

Signing off,
Lilo

In the words of John Legend

2011-04-28T15:49:00.002+08:00

"It gets harder everyday but I can't seem to shake the pain

I'm trying to find the words to say, please stay
It's written all over my face
I can't function the same when you're not here
I'm calling your name and no one's there

Cause everybody knows that nobody really knows
How to make it work or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before everybody knows just how to make it right
I wish we gave it one more try, one more try, one more try
'Cause everybody knows but nobody really knows"

~Anya~

Day 41 - Shenzhen

2011-04-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

yeah, I have been missing in action for a long time.. Even with so much time in hand, haven't been in the mood to blog.. so much been happening that are probably not worth sharing...

anyway, in the midst of all the madness, I got this message today.. a simple message that touched my heart so deeply, so I had to put it up here..

"I know this may sound mushy, but im in midvalley this week for work n I keep on thinking of us last time where we always hang out here. It was just too often. If I go out with the kids- I got no time to think abt anything. That's all"

Enough said, I guess. I miss you too!

Lilo

Doraemon

2011-04-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

Often we wish to go back to our childhood when life was less complicated and carefree. When I was a child and I heard an adult saying this, I was thinking "You're nuts!! I can't wait to grow up and stop being a kid". Well, I haven't changed my mind on that part....

But still .... I wish I had a quick fix solution to life's demands. I wish I had Doraemon. And his assortment of gadgets.

I want an Anywhere Door that can take me anywhere. Or even Takecopter. Imagine no getting stuck in traffic jams, no more flight delays and saving heaps of money on petrol and plane tickets.

I want a Voodoo Camera, a point-and-shoot that will make a miniature voodoo doll of that person. All the bitches and tongkangs that I've ever come across better watch out!

Oh and how about a 3D Printer! It makes life-sized models of whatever I draw in an instant. Life would just be about perfect.

Hmm...I'm either wishfully thinking or downright delusional and quite insane :)

Anya

2011-04-01T17:22:00.000+08:00

This song is super annoying and lame ....

Rebecca Black - Friday

...seems like anyone can be a star these days...
But oh well - it's...

F.R.I.D.A.Y !!

~anya~
[waiting for 530pm]

Day 6 Shenzhen – New Home!

2011-03-06T19:42:00.000+08:00

So today I moved to a new hotel, where I was originally supposed to be and where I am going to be for the next one month. I like everything about the room, I don’t know why. It’s small but cozy. Probably because it has everything I need, including a weight scale. And I told myself while I am here I better lose some “kilobytes”. So yeah, that basically summarizes my new life. I am actually talking kilobytes.

Its day 6 today, did some walking alone and I told myself, I wish I don’t have to go back… let’s see if that changes in weeks to come… but at the moment, I am enjoying the peacefulness… the fact that no one bothers me for anything and I am left alone most of the time is nice.. The fact that, I will never understand even if the person next to me bitches about me or curses me is nice... the fact that doing simple things that I always took for granted, or even just ordering a simple meal can be so damn challenging makes the entire experience even more interesting….

Resting in peace,

Lilo

Day #4 Shenzhen – Expect the unexpected

2011-03-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a wild day… Not that I did anything naughty, but I did everything that I will never do under any normal circumstances if I was still in Malaysia…

First – Out of desperateness for coffee, I actually stole a mug! Like seriously… and some coffee packets too…. But of course I rationalized probably it’s just some left behind mug etc, but only to find out later that the owner is in fact still around.. So now I’m feeling guilty like ever, and for some reason I am not in mood for coffee today….

Second – I actually allowed two strangers, whom I just accidentally bumped into, guys, who happen to be Malaysian Indians, to buy me lunch… I don’t know for what reason… I wonder why I can never trust/get along with people so easily like that when we are both in our own country… it’s amazing how I actually had conversation with them and shared phone numbers…

P/s: if you don’t already know by now, I am (or at least back in Malaysia, I was) people-phobic... I really am/was… when I see a group of my colleagues going into a lift; I purposely walk slow and skip the lift just to avoid having a conversation with them...

Third – I finally met and had a very nice dinner with my “online chat buddy” for the past 2-3 years in Shenzhen. Btw, he’s also a Malaysian. Like weird right? And this is one guy who have tried so hard to meet me for the longest time and I never agreed for again don’t know what reason… We used to work in the same area, btw... So yeah, and that went very well and I had good fun… it’s also funny to think how the world now has become so small and one should never give up! Haha…

Fourth – I actually gave directions in CHINESE (and lots of sign languages) to a taxi driver to take me back to my hotel quite late at night. And guess what, it was a smooth journey and I reached safely ;)

So yeah, the day was crazy, adventurous and full of unexpected experiences!

Lilo

Happy 28th Anya !

2011-03-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

Anya (not her real name) turns 28 today!

Anya is a girl who has accomplished a lot in her short 28 years.

For one, she has a good head on her shoulders, not overly-emotional, is MARRIED!!!, have a good career and a good work life balance. Lets not forget she also has a great family, husband and friends (*ahem*).

Of course, everyone has their own problems and we are not saying Anya doesn't. Im sure she has.
But the bright side is, this is a bright girl (bright in every way) and she tackles them.

To Anya, here's a toast to more happy years to come. May the next year see another milestone accomplished in your life (*ahem*).

Something for kicks:
Anya is the Russian form of Anna which means "graceful".
Anya is also the Sanskrit word meaning "inexhaustible".

Hmmmmmmmm

p/s: Sorry that im such a Dory (the fish) when it comes to remembering Birthdays. It took Lilo in CN to email to remind me. Jeez!

Lots of Love,
Pinkscalers

Day #3 Shenzhen - Indians!

2011-02-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

I don’t mean to be racist here… But I really think Indians are like cockroaches... they seem to be everywhere and you can never get rid of them… the last place I expected to see lots of them is in China... but here they are… lots and lots of them.. In my last job, I look for speakers from all over the world and I tell my people don’t bother calling India… At the end of the day, the panel of international speakers list will be all Indian names... It’s like you really can’t run away from them... And yes, I am proud that they seem to be taking over the world in all fields of work… But I can’t help myself but to be annoyed as soon as they start talking…

Some “Indian moments” in China..

#1 So this one Indian guy comes to me at the HK airport and asks if I am an Indian, and I say “No, I am a Malaysian”… and he gives me this very disgusted you-are-such-a-betrayer look and walks off….

#2 And then there was this another Indian guy comes to ask me for directions:

He: Hi, are you Indian?

Me: Err, no, I am Malaysian..

He: (shakes his head and says) but its ok, can you tell me how do I get to the city?

Me: What does he mean by IT’S OK!!! Grrrr….

#3 I am waiting for a bus and this guy approaches me.. Being very careful with what I say..

He: Hi, what time does the bus come?

Me: should be reaching soon

He: Btw, where are you from?

Me: Malaysia

He: but you are an Indian, no?

Me: Yes, I am a Malaysian Indian..

He: aahh, no wonder… u look Indian… So, which part of India you are from?

Me: Grrr… I am from Malaysia..

He: You were raised there?

Me: I was born there!!! And I turn away….

#4 conversation between 2 Indians sitting in front me in a bus..

Guy 1: So where did you have lunch and dinner yesterday?

Guy 2: (with a very annoying accent) Lunch I ate here only... Dinner I ate there only….

Me: WTF??? *faint*

Lilo

Day #2 - Shenzhen

2011-02-27T19:32:00.000+08:00

Today is my day 2 in Shenzhen. So glad I managed to be back on facebook and blog... Life is definitely not the same without it... Its funny how I frantically searched for internet when I reached here yesterday just to feel home, or maybe i'm not so lonely anymore feeling :p I almost kissed the ground when I was back on google... and today i feel complete that I have found some backdoor for facebook and blogs :)

Anyway, back to Shenzhen.. I arrived here yesterday evening.. Trip from Hong Kong to Shenzhen on the road wasn't so great.. The fact that I traveled alone with 7 chinese men on a mpv, who had no clue of an english word, amazes me.. thank the mighty lord, I survived..

The place is okay.. I have got a nice looking room... still trying to get used to the 'open' bathroom :p yeah, I am jakun like that... but I really don't see whats the point of the concept.. its not like there's no space as the room is huge.. and thank god I'm alone here.. I think seeing your partner shitting is oh-so-not-romantic! :p

there isn't a mini bar/refrigerator in the room.. but guess what? they have got a range of condoms on display for sale in the room.. hahaha...

anyway, I did some walking around the town today.. went to the training centre/university and really liked it! The whole campus is so beautiful and was glad to see many foreigners around.. I so feel like I am back in uni with so much to study.. gotta kickass tomorrow!

till then,
Lilo

Another birthday already?!!

2011-02-24T14:23:00.000+08:00

February, why does thou finishth so fast?

Sighhhhhhhhh...........

Wishing to be forever 25,

Anya

Men #17

2011-02-24T07:56:00.001+08:00

I read this on someones tweet today..

RT "Dear girls, If a guy pauses his video game just to text you back, Marry him. Since such a guy doesnt exist lets be single :p

lol.. So true :)

i always go, "hello, u there? No reply??"

N I get a reply after ages, "was playing game" :p

iLilo

Blind date..

2011-02-22T19:10:00.001+08:00

Seriously.. Never once I thought I will actually drive for 2 hours through a massive traffic jam for a blind date!!! Fark!!

Whoever you are, I already hate you!

iLilo

Fawkward !!!!

2011-02-22T18:00:00.002+08:00

.. is when a nice colleague at your office (a senior one and a nice one at that) suggests to set you up with his friend.
(this just happened like 40 minutes ago)

.. is when the person he tries to set you up with has been on similiar dates with your elder sibling and your sibling rejected!! (fawkwarddddddd......)

.. is when the person he tries to set you up with has been asked by your parents to be RE-Considered by the sibling (refer above) after sibling marriage broke off. (fawkwarddddd!!fawkwarddddd!!fawkwarddddd!!)

.. is when you cant tell the colleague anymore that you are with someone coz you just broke up 2 weeks ago... damn that was a convinient excuse :(

.. is when you grandma thinks you are finally seeing someone only to be told, no its over grandma.

.. is when you need to go on blind dates set up by parents/relatives because heaven forbid, you are still single! (well this was 2 years ago.. but still)

This surely sucks!

n.e.m.o

the really stupid emo rant which im gonna regret blogging about :P

2011-02-22T11:38:00.006+08:00

i have tons of work to catch up on but here i am blogging! something i rarely do.
i just got back from a vacay. and now the feelings that i was escaping has come to haunt me back.

something happened just before i left for my vacation. the guy who i have been 'sorta dating' decided that he is not up for it. we decided its best we be friends. so there i was, feeling like 'why am i not surprised this is the outcome'. sigh.

to make it worse, im jet lagged. every night im wide awake and in the office im stoned.
i came back feeling refreshed and feeling energized to start work and be better!
and yet here i am in the office, thinking of him and how he is doing. wondering why men can move on so fast or if he didnt even feel like saying hello online.

my personal phone (yes, i carry 2 mobile phones at all times. the corporate BlackBerry and my obsolete Nokia) was hibernating for the past 3 years... then suddenly Noki became active about 8 months ago. and now its back to its normal hibernate state.
feels weird. hate that. i dont like changes. gimme back my 8 months! lol.
Berry on the other hand has been trhiving. Berry has been my constant companion thruout the years. it always blinks. when it doesnt blink red, i get worried and sad even.

i know i'll get thru this. i've been thru worse and this is nothing :)
its just scary being back in the singles pool. being back to 'im gonna die a spinster' mode.
in short, it sucks. it sucks more when you know this decision is for the better.

p/s: why is valentines day still being hyped up over in Facebook and in telly? its bad enuf i saw flowers and teddys all over in middle east where people are supposedly not supposed to celebrate it but here too? meh.

really bored n.e.m.o

Yay, Me!

2011-02-21T13:51:00.000+08:00

It took N to say "Your hair is so messy! When was the last time you had a haircut?" to snap me out this stoned state of mind that I've had for the last 3 months. For a few minutes I couldn't recall when I last cut my hair. I had to dig deep into my memory, way back to August 2010!

I've been so wrapped up with work and my first experience working in pre-sales that I realised that even way back than a hair cut was my facial and mani/pedi!

Things cannot continue this way!

So I went for a hair wash, cut and blow. Feeling refreshed with a lighter head (literally!), I went for my mani/pedi. Almost 2 hours of bliss, reading a good book and sipping Starbucks Java Chip (with whipped cream!) while the skilled manicurist worked on my abused and abandoned nails.

But I wasn't done yet. I had to make up for 3 months of neglecting myself! So next was lingerie shopping with lilo!

ngee!!

I thought I was done after that La Senza shopping spree 'cause I was already feeling pretty happy but yesterday my mother asked me to bring her to Thai Odyssey. She twisted her arm somehow and wanted a massage. And I thought - hey, why not I get a massage together with her as well! So I did.

So who says money can't buy happiness? I certainly bought mine over the weekend.

:)
Anya

2011-02-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

Life is so exciting and excruciating at the same time..

I don't know if the silence between us is gonna do any help..

I honestly don't know if I can deal with this anymore..

iLilo

Leaving..

2011-02-16T23:27:00.001+08:00

So much been happening.. But I'm just not in the right mind n mood to blog... In a nut shell, things at home been so so sucky!

But on the positive side, have started my new job.. Been pretty good so far.. Eventough haven't really done anything much, but at least I know start of work at other places have been worse.. People are warm here..

And perhaps the best news is that, I'm leaving to Shenzhen next week :) I'm gonna be there for at least 2 months n hopefully I will have some piece of mind there! Looking forward to it.. Even tough somehow no one at home seem interested in knowing anything bout my trip..

So with all these going on n my sudden trip happening early next week, I am having an extremely high adrenalin rush to shop, shop n shop!!

I actually covered both klcc n mid valley today :) Wassup now? :p

iLilo

Turning 29 (part V)

2011-02-08T02:08:00.001+08:00

Again?? Haha, hey I hear you.. But I must share the awesome gift that I just received from my dear frens..

It's a benefit smokin eyes make up kit.. It supposedly comes with everything u need for a complete eye makeover.. Even a cute tweezers included :)

I haven't figured out how exactly to use this, but hoping to master it soon.. I do love smokey eyes..

Till then, if you spot any panda-looking-gal in town, that would be me ;)

iLilo

Ps: thanks dearies ;)

At last(!)&(?)

2011-02-08T01:54:00.001+08:00

Today was my last day in my current company.. Had tonnes of stuff to clear, keep n recycle.. Throughout packing I couldn't help thinking what will happen to my team, what will happen to the company, how will they survive without me? Letting go of relationships has been easier for me..

As much I hated working there, I was also very attached to the company.. Having spent 3 quarter of my last 3 years of life there, I believe I have made a difference to the company.. At least a tiny bit..

I have trained n developed exactly 20 staff under my supervision.. I don't know if I was a good boss to all of them, but I'm hoping I will be getting a good boss n karma doesn't return too soon :p

All said n done, I was the last to leave today.. As usual.. I'm still holding the office key n I wonder why.. As long as I don't get a wake up call from my boss tomorrow, it's all good..

My team refuses to say goodbye to me.. I wanted my last day to be last Wednesday n they insisted that I come back today.. N today they refuse to say bye again n ask me to come by another day before I start work.. Sigh.. I'm gonna miss these people..

iLilo

Probably this is why some marriages/relationships last.. Cos letting go is so hard...

2011-01-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

There is no formula.

Love takes the shape of the couple who possess it.

That has got to be the smartest quote about love I have ever come across.

~Anya~

Sink or swim?

2011-01-25T09:53:00.001+08:00

I'm attending my last ever conference today.. Just when I wanna give it all up, things are going great here.. Well, I just got to do, what I got to do I guess..

I'm pretty nervous about this whole resignation thing.. I still have not informed any of my colleagues.. Especially my team.. I'm planning to take them out on a nice lunch and break the news.. I'm sentimental like that :p

Even tough, I have been dying for a new job and all that; moving totally out of the industry to something brand new (at this age) is nerve wrecking.. And this new job is going to be a great combo of 2 things that I hate most in life: engineering + teaching :p

Somehow I always end up doing things that I have special hatredness towards, (just like how I'm always attracted to men as much as I hate them)

but anyway, hopefully I'll only swim and not sink.. not like I'm expecting to scuba dive or anything, so let's see!

iLilo

What's new for this year you ask?

2011-01-18T12:37:00.002+08:00

2011

Life is still a mess
Still sporting the fringe look
Still ‘in between dating’ the same person, still not committing…
Still looking for property (most of which I can’t afford)
My Outlook now has 7++ emails that are not sorted
Like Lilo, not looking forward to turn 28 and nowhere near my childish ambitions of being ‘settled’ in life in all aspects.
Started exercising (hooray.. like twice so far)
In need of new gym pants
Another family vacay coming up next month, this time to the Middle East. Should be fun, i HOPE.

N.e.m.o

N.e.m.o Reflects

2011-01-18T12:31:00.006+08:00

2010
A year of many events. Some happy, some sad.

For me, the year started off with Mr.Happy (who seldom visits) but ended with Mr. & Mrs Sadder (they love dropping by ever so often).

But that is LIFE. It goes on. The year gets replaced. People get replaced.

If there is one thing that 2010 taught me, it was Expect the Unexpected!

So here’s list of few key milestones/mishaps/events that are in no particular order:

2 best friends get married! and more batchmates get hitched, have babies yada yada yada..
Found new friends!
Managed to survive a family vacay to the Island of Gods.
Revisited Delhi and loved it this time round. The weather, the shops, the people and even the trains
Went to a place which held my childhood/teenhood/adulthood fascination = Hong Kong! And loved it!
My life was a mess
Didn’t perform as well at work as I could have but my boss thinks I deserve an Exceed even when I protested… HAHAHA, like that also can??!
A close family friend/neighbour passed away after battling his sudden disease for 3 months on my birthday…it was unexpected. Not a day goes by when I don’t pass his house feeling nostalgic or sad. Why do bad things happen to good people and low lifes get to live their lives lucky as ever and without any mishaps?
My Outlook still has 6++ emails that are not sorted..
Started dating again … weird feeling...
Had relatives from India and experienced the nightmare of being gracious hosts
Cut myself a fringe and there have been mixed response till date. Mostly good from non family members. Hate maintaining it though
Ate escargots for the first time .. ewww but not too ewww

Saw my parents worst nightmare came true .. :(
Attended a ghazal/sufi-like concert in Singapore and came back awed!
Was part of another dog rescue mission (this time involving neighbour’s dogs)
Started looking for property like for real and realized I missed the boat
Planted trees for environment !!
Got proposed (no, not marriage) but didn’t say yes or no
Took part in my first marathon!

Attended a youth camp after a long gap and had fun!
Re-connected with old friends!
Re-cycled more last year, extracting glass bottles, aluminum cans and plastic bottles in separate bags :)Yup, more households should start segregating their waste.
My past caught up with me and left me reeling in shock/despair And yes, I know im STUPID
Spent the new year’s eve at home watching 3 Idiots, not bothering to look at fireworks
My weight started piling up and ended the year being 60 kilos ! By the end of the year, I could not fit (without looking obscene) for about 70% of my clothes (I kid you not! Not exaggerating either!)
Bought myself my first sports shoes after 9 years (the last one being when I got in Uni)
Got laughed at for my ass when I attempted to jog in the park front of my house! Motivating, i know :P

N.e.m.o

Turning 29 (Part IV)

2011-01-17T17:33:00.000+08:00

I can't believe I am writing the 4th series of a birthday that I refused to celebrate :p Nevertheless, I probably had the best birthday celebration ever this year! I'm still very overwhelmed by the entire thing.. I cant thank my friends enough for making my day... Eventough it was a surprise plan that went haywire, (even my name on the cake, did!) eventually everything fell into place.. Sorry nemo, for making you panic, I just had to! :p And poor boyfriend was getting all annoyed with my questions and with his inabilities to lie properly :p lol.. that was fun!

All said, we had a great time.. I hope everyone did! and I was so touched that so many people attended, despite the rain, jam, and work... And was very happy to have those additions (plus 1s) to the family :)

The next day was followed with party for my boyfriend.. That was fun too! it's been so long since I clubbed, and must say had a great time... and this is what he got me! another one down on the resolution list! :D yay!

and its supposingly an automatic watch.. I've never heard that before, have u? It's pretty cool n thoughtful of him, cos I always have problems with my watches.. n today I read about it that it functions based on body energy... So yeah, I'm all impressed :D

Also got some extremely beautiful candles from The C-Club... courtesy of S & K.. I'm still figuring out how to use it though, but coming from c-club I guess it must be pretty pricey..

aahhh... I'm so blessed to have friends like this! :D

Love ya all, and may 30 never come :p

Cheers,
Lilo

Men #16

2011-01-17T15:22:00.000+08:00

I just had to share this.. came through some forward mails..

Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?

MENtal illness

MENstrual cramps

MENtal breakdown

MENopause

GUYnecologist

AND
When we have REAL trouble, it's a.. HISterectomy.

Lol! So true..

Lilo

Turning 29 (part III)

2011-01-13T19:25:00.001+08:00

Only half a day gone, and my birthday has already been oh so fabulous! ;)

With beautiful cards lining up on my desk..

My 1st (n hopefully the only) cake for the day!

Beautiful ring on my finger..

And a extremely gorgeous clutch ;) Thanks to my juniors..

And no pictures can describe the joy on their faces when they screamed "surprise!!" on top of their lungs n made my day ;) I was truly honestly surprised as this the best I can ask from my colleagues :)

And all this happened on the day I was planning to resign! Gosh.. I've put the letter aside now.. Hopefully I'll have the courage to do it tomorrow..

But I don't think I'll ever be able to tell my juniors the news as they sincerely believe I'm such a super boss! ;) (they said that, btw)

Looking forward to more n more love from friends tonight ;)

Cheers,
iLilo

Happy Birthday Lilo !

2011-01-13T10:39:00.017+08:00

Happy Birthday to dearest Lilo !
Here is a poem dedicated in your honour:

A true friend is the one who picks you up when you fall

A true friend is one that won't lie

A true friend is there when you call

A true friend is there when you want to die

A true friend knows just what to say

A true friend won't care what other people think

A true friend will help you find your way

A true friend will make sure you don't sink

A true friend will help you choose your path

A true friend will know when something is wrong

A true friend has to sometimes face your wrath

A true friend makes you feel like you belong

~ Ashley Reese

A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though she knows that you are slightly cracked.

And yeah, we are all slightly cracked somewhere. I know i am :P and yet, you're stayed on! haha :P (N.e.m.o)

Lotsa Love,

PinkScalers

Turning 29 (Part II)

2011-01-10T12:11:00.000+08:00

Then came 2011..

On the eve of the new year, my uncle threw a party and my entire family reunited.. Then came my sister to the party with a huge cake (red velvet cake to be exact! I really don't get the hype).. but anyway, they planned to cut the cake at strike 2011 n then it came to the question of who should cut the cake.. n of cos my sister's kids and every other kid started fighting for the cake and my smartass sister decided I should cut the cake, since my bday is the closest! like wtf.. n of cos no one bothered my loud screaming of "Noooooooooooooooo!!!" (with the back of my left hand on my mouth ala hindi movie :p ) So I cut the cake, to my entire (I really mean) entire family singing happy birthday!! So much for celebrating new year.. Cis!

That's where it all started...

Then on the 1st of Jan, I met up Nemo and S for coffee.. talking talking n talking, suddenly there was mention of, meeting up again soon, should do a party, lilo's bday.. n tadaaa... the masterminds decided my bday will be a good reason to get together n celebrate :) n of cos I agreed, would never ever say no to party with my friends, even if it goes to the extent of celebrating my bday! *drama* lol..

Then on the 3rd, Monday, 1st text I received was a very sweet Birthday wish from a dear dear friend, who thought my bday was on the 3rd instead of the 13th :p haha.. then he went on to profusely apologising and insisted on making it up to me on my bday.. He says let me throw you a party?? *Faint*

Then on the 4th, two of my ex-colleagues, whom I used to be close to got in touch.. I have been avoiding meeting them up lately for stupid reasons.. Looks like they never gave up on me... They "decided" my bday will be a good reason to force me to meet up with them, n at the sight of some lame excuses from me, they say, they will throw me a party n I must show up! hahaha... *slams head on the monitor*

The next day, my dad announces that he will buy me a laptop as my bday gift!! Can u believe it??? The best thing is, I was not even asking for one, even tough of course I would love love one :) *glee*

The right next day, my mom goes out shopping with her friends, and comes back home with a new top for me.. for me to wear on my birthday! *sweetness*

Then on the 7th, I receive a sweet email from Nemo & Anya, officially announcing my birthday bash! :D which now I can't can't wait to attend :) *excited*

Then on the 8th, my mom cooked special lunch on behalf of my bday.. all my favorite dishes were lined up and I was stuffed like shit... *yumminess*

Then yest, I really got the new laptop as promised =) I'm totally in love with it now, after suffering with my old one at home for a long time.. *love*

So yeah, you see now, how tone down my bday is?? So much for wanting to skip the day.. I have been reminded of it almost everyday now...

But the good thing is, I'm no longer freaking out.. I feel blessed.. to be surrounded with such lovable friends and family.. It definitely seems like a great year.. It's like all of a sudden the number 29 has become so significant! I bet this year will be a year not to forget..

But of course, being the pessimist, I cant help but to pray to god, to eliminate the hidden T&Cs for all these.. I can't help but wonder what's gonna be the catch for all this kindness?

But for now, I shall stop worrying and start enjoying the moment..

My dear 29, bring on all you've got!! I'm ready to take you down! :)

- Lilo ~ totally blessed :)

Turning 29

2011-01-10T00:45:00.001+08:00

In exactly 3 days time, I'll be a year older.. 29 to be exact.. I've been dreading this day since months ago.. I think it was during nov I really really started panicking.. Year end has become a torturous moment to go through since I turned 25 I think.. I dread year end cos as soon as the year begins, before u can even get over the new year n holiday spirit, it will be my damn birthday! I think it's the worst time of the year to be born... Sigh...

But anyway, I was totally not looking forward to this year's bday.. Especially because I'm turning 29.. I think it's such a weird age.. It's like the number 29 is so insignificant.. Besides the fact that I won't belong to the twenties group anymore after this.. sigh..

So yeah, I think 29 is such an insignificant number bcos, all my life I never plan to achieve anything while I'm 29.. Since growing up, I always say, by 28 I must do this, by 30 I must do that, but 29 was never there.. You see my dilemma?

So after dreading in nov n freaking out in dec, I sorta decided that I don't wanna celebrate my bday this year, or I will keep it as tone down as possible.. even got my bf to agree to it.. I stopped freaking out n embraced 2011..

(to be continued...)

iLilo ~ sleepy :)

Beware of the Douchebags

2011-01-07T11:21:00.009+08:00

For the longest time, the PinkScalers had a theory...

Our theory was that people from a town called Klang were always:
1. Not trustworthy
2. Cheap
3. Shameless

In short, people who you don't want to have as friends.
This theory was true in some ways as we came across few other people who belonged to the town and were of the characteristic as above.
* after many years, i finally met one true friend who is a dear, dear person. Like a sister to me. And she is from Klang. So i guess it might only apply to Indians from Klang? hehe (and no, im not being racist. Its something only Pinkscalers will understand)

But today we stumbled on another freakish truth:

See while not all Aries are douchebags, those that have their birthdays fall between 29 to 30 March ARE certified DOUCHEBAGS + OXYMORONS to the core!
Why so harsh you ask?

Well let’s just say people of this category LIE about each and every thing and we have solid proof collected over years of observation and personally knowing and being close to them (not like we do on purpose, just that paths cross and we become friends/relatives to them and then after you have been 'HIT', you start seeing patterns).

People of this kind have huge EGOs. They think they are super rich, or super smart or super beautiful that everyone is out there to get them or get to know them. I am not joking.

P used to think she was the prettiest of the lot. God forbid should any man even glance her way coz she will then think 'he likes me'.
She never got sticking around in a worksplace for long as she always came up with same story:
This manager likes me. And he is married. Or something about sexual harassment would be her excuse to leave.
She used to copy from Lilo not only Uni Thesis stuff but up to Facebook status updates!!
Not once, not twice but freaking each time !! Again, not kidding.
Like who does that??
On top of that, she used to lie about the car she was going to get, how she didn’t manage to get it this time round, how some priest advised her not to get this color etc etc.
There was no stopping to her lies which were the same every semester, every year.

Then we have M. Now M have a special method about lying. He lies about things that we cannot find out immediately from. (A skill honed up after years of lying i guess). He used to lie about his financial status, claiming property which he never owned to be his, claiming to go places he never been, claiming his boss sucked and he was being framed by his superiors at work, making promises which he never intended to keep, etc. The list goes on pretty long.

In short, the Pinkscalers know total of 4 douchebags that are born 29-30 March who are a nuisance to the society, who have hurt so many people around them with their pathetic LIES and behavior.
1. They absolutely love to BRAG !! (even for things they don’t own/have)
2. They love MONEY
3. They always WHINE. Like constantly..
4. They LIE thru their mouth every waking second. Even for small insignificant things that don’t require lying.
5. They love talking about themselves.. whether its how im being looked at, to how successful I am, etc..

For the life of me, I cannot think why someone would be all of the above. Don’t they have fear for GOD? Don’t they know the laws of Karma? Don’t they know Truth always prevails in the end? Don’t they know people are not dumb and can actually see thru their lies?

Yes i know some of you may argue, 4 is not a number we should make our conclusions on.
So you are welcome to comment if you do know personally those born between those dates that are not douchebags.
But as Pinkscalers, we reserve the right to hold our own opinion and beliefts (it is our blog anyway :P).

N.e.m.o

Thank god!

2011-01-06T21:38:00.001+08:00

So I got a job offer today! :) yeeehaaaaa... Finally..

Didn't expect my resolution to come true this fast, but yeah, this year do seem to be on a good track :)

Looks like tears do get answered sometimes..

Luv u god!

iLilo :)

ps: thank u Anya for the help! xoxo..

2011-01-05T21:22:00.001+08:00

Sometimes when I'm driving, I wish for a big trailer to crash into mine out of nowhere.. Not because of anything.. It's just a temptation..

Sometimes when I'm working, tears roll down my eyes non stop.. Not because something happened, but it just happens.. I wipe my tears n I continue working like nothing happened..

So yeah, sometimes I'm sad..
Sometimes I'm down..
Sometimes I cry..

And I don't need a reason to do all that.. In fact, I don't actually have any reason for all that.. It just happens.. As simple as that..

Is that so hard to understand? Why don't you get it?

iLilo :(

Siem Reap 2010

2011-01-05T14:17:00.001+08:00

My trip to Siem Reap was a resounding success! Although I've read that Angkor Wat is considered to be greater than the pyramids I wasn't expecting much because I've been to the pyramids and I couldn't imagine Angkor Wat being more spectacular. I was glad to be proven wrong.

Our guide was a really good story teller. His stories combined with the architectural wonders of the temples, it was like the history books from secondary school, the Mahabratha and the Ramayana came to life...

Since a picture says a thousand words, here's some...

Sunset at Bakheng Temple

Angkor Wat - early in the morning

Intricate carvings at Bantaey Srei Temple

Tomb Raider filmed at Ta Prohm Temple

Faces of Bayon Temple

Pre Rup Temple - built way before Angkor Wat

View of the main entrance from the top of Angkor Wat

:) Anya :)

Two O One One

2011-01-03T11:25:00.001+08:00

Hola, people! Happy new year!

So its a brand new year and a brand new Monday of the year.. but some things don't change, so does the Monday blues.. definitely cant expect for it to be any less bluer after a week long break!

I see that many people feel the same way about 2010. It was a year not to be remembered, not many good things happened. Everyone seem to be glad its over and so am I. Really hoping for some miracles to take place in 2011. Especially if its true that the world will end in 2012 ~~my ultimate dream come true~~ then this year better be a bloody good year! I see some good signs, fingers crossed, let's see...

So of course, I've got my resolutions ~~more like the things I would need to spend for this year~~... So here are my 11 resolutions for the year 2011..

1. Always at the top of my list, to lose some weight this year! I really really absolutely MUST MUST lose some weight.. 5kg to be precise.. anything more will be a bonus!

2. I need to get myself a new JOB! like ASAP...

3. Buy at least two new handbags this year! :) If one of them can carry the "Coach" name, it would be extra nice...

4. I need a watch (note: need and not buy)

5. Go for a holiday out of Asia pac... tired of the Asian countries..

6. Get a new tattoo!! I really really want a tattoo on my ankle...

7. To be more adventurous..

8. Clear my credit card and loan debts.. ~~How unlikely~~

9. Start wearing colors and dresses! ~~How unlikely~~

10. NOT do anything to my hair and try to love it the way it is.. h~~oping for all the grey hair to go away..~~ ~~again, how unlikely~~..

11. last and the least, err, get my bf to meet my parents? ~~haha, tell me about it~~..

But hey, impossible is nothing! Yeah, I am positive like that this year!

Lilo :)

Back from Bali!

2010-12-29T13:27:00.001+08:00

I'm finally back from the island of gods..

IWith well rested but now tired feet..

belly filled with some starred drink..

And a awesome possum tattoo :)

And pretty nails!

besides having withdrawal syndrome from Internet for 4 days, a great holiday it was =)

iLilo